Awe.

In awe of the King. Life in Him is the most beautiful thing I have felt, experienced, or known. Softening is a journey. I pray that my selfish motivations, my constant tendency to focus on my Haley-story/wants/desires, and my hardened-inward heart to be broken, softened, surrendered. Following feelings keeps my life an up and down roller coaster. I can't do it anymore.

God, please soften me, break me, humble me, meet my weaknesses with your strength. Take me through the flames so that I can be refined, softened, moldable to be changed into your character. Love. Joy. Peace. Patience. Kindness. Goodness. Faithfulness. Gentleness. Self-Control. God, help me believe that this is who you are. Fight away all my misconceptions and indifference. Please take me low so that I can be used by you. I need you. You are the most beautiful thing I know. May I know you more. I want to fall deeper in love with you.

"Let me sing for the breath that You've given

Every day for the life You sustain

The beat of the heart you formed when I was made

Let me worship your wonder and splendor

Though the heavens Your glory proclaim

They don't know the price You paid for my life,

The sacrifice you made

Let me sing, louder than creation to You

For the pain You bore in Your body, to bring my soul to You

Let me shine, brighter than the stars in the sky

An offering of praise all my life, to You my Holy King

Let me sing for the mercy You've given

Undeserving and broken am I

Though I've turned away, Your faithfulness remains

Let me live in Your light forever,

As I walk through the course of my days

And join to proclaim, with all of the saints, the Only worthy name"

-Todd Fields

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=44r5cs9aF34&feature=related